So I'm going to be honest. . . Today I've been feeling anxious. I'm generally an anxious and fearful person by nature. It's definitely something I've struggled with in my life and still continue to, even though I have grown in confidence. For example I have a fear of throwing up. . I guess there is always a reason why we have fears. I mean everyone has them! Let's get real! There is always a deeper meaning to our fears. I truly believe that the reason why I'm so fearful of throwing up is because. . [ Side note for those of you who don't know my younger brother is physically and mentally handicapped in other words he has cerebral palsy. ] . . . Since my brother is the way he is when we were young every time I got sick I would always be told to stay away from my brother. At that time if he were to get sick it could be not a good situation. So I have always associated sickness as a bad thing.
You may be like Jessie. . Why are you telling us about your fear of throwing up? Well. . . Since I was feeling so anxious today I start contemplating my life and goals. . Probably not the best time to over think as I'm having anxiety! Which just overwhelms me more! So while I was in my own head working myself up. I had a moment. I looked over at my brother and got emotional. . Here I am an able body. I can choose to go to the gym. . . I can choose to go get myself a burger. . . My brother on the other hand can't always do what he wants without my family and I asking him what he would like to do. Something as simple as a walk. . Something he loves to do! Imagine thinking to yourself, I would like to go on a walk and not being able to physically do it for yourself. So why am I wasting my time worrying. . Being fearful. . Feeling anxious and being in my own head. When I have the ability to take action! Make my own positive life choices and change the things that aren't working in my life! You know sometimes God puts people in your life for a reason. My brother is defiantly that person for me. He reminds me everyday that I have so much to be thankful for and that it's e little things in life that are the greatest blessings! We all have our moments when we feel down. . . But we all need to have those good life realizations of how blessed we are and pick ourselves back up! If you're having one of those days realize that it's okay to be down. But use it as motivation to reach your goals or make a positive change in your life! Life is going to be scary and you're going to be constantly moving forward towards the unknown. Just do your best! #ineedtotakemyownadvice